Unconditioning Love
Episodes
34 episodes
Aaron's Story - The Ocean And The Drop
For most of his life, Aaron knew God as a father figure far off in the sky — watching, judging, keeping score. That's the God you often inherit growing up in the 2x2s (also known as "the Truth," or "the church with no name").In this epis...
Kara's Story - What My Daughers Wouldn't Carry
Episode summaryKara grew up four generations deep in the 2x2 religious group — and she left. In this conversation, she takes us into what it was like to grow up in an environment where love had to be earned, where God was someone ...
When Loyalty Isn't Love (It's Control)
What if the thing you thought was loyalty was actually control?In this solo episode of Unconditioning Love, Lidi shares years of consciously healing through one of her deepest limiting beliefs: I am worthy by how much I help...
Unlearning External Living
In this short reflection, Lydia explores how growing up in high-control religions taught many of us to live outside of ourselves, to mistrust our inner knowing, outsource authority, and disconnect from our own hearts.She reflects on how ...
Julie's Story - Making Space For Miracles
In this episode, I’m joined by Julie Jancius, host of the Angels and Awakening podcast, for a heartfelt conversation about faith, divine connection, and spiritual evolution. Julie shares her personal journey of growing up within the Catholic tr...
Yvette's Story - Tangled Up In Twos Part 4
In this episode of Unconditioning Love, we wrap up the Tangled Up mini-series, where we have been exploring women’s experiences in the 2x2 religions and how leaving has transformed their relationship with identity and self-exp...
Cherie's Story - Tangled Up In Twos Part 3
Unconditioning Love – Tangled Up (Episode 3)In this episode of Tangled Up, we delve into an excerpt from Cherie Kropp’s life story and explore the profound impact of hair, traditions, and questioning authority within the 2x2 high contro...
Tangled Up In Twos Part 2
Episode Summary:In the second episode of the Tangled Up mini-season, we hear three powerful anonymous stories from women reflecting on their complex relationships with hair in fundamentalist religious environments. These sto...
Tangled Up In Twos Part 1
Welcome back to Unconditioning Love for the start of Season 2! We’re diving into the first installment of our special mini-series, “Tangled Up.” This series unpacks the profound connection between women, their hair, and faith communiti...
The Time I Sleepwalked At Convention
In today’s mini-episode, we’re bringing some lighthearted laughter to balance the heaviness of the current political climate. Get ready for a fun, nostalgic ride as I share two funny, embarrassing stories from my childhood years growing up in a...
Robert's Story Part 2 - Lost Support, Found Self
In episode 23 of Unconditioning Love, Robert shares his story of faith, doubt, and ultimately, liberation. His family joined the 2x2 faith community when he was just two years old. Soon after they converted, his family began hosting a Wednesday...
Katie's Story - Beyond The Fear Of Hell
In this episode, Katie shares her transformative journey of breaking free from the constraints of the 2x2 religion deeply rooted in her family's history. As a third-generation member, Katie was raised with a strong sense of duty to the church's...
Casey's Story - When God Is Just Group Energy
In episode 21 of Unconditioning Love, Casey shares his unique story of growing up in a rural area of Atlantic Canada, where his family’s deep roots in the 2x2 church shaped much of his upbringing. As a sixth-generation member on his mother’s si...
Robert's Story - Leaving Behind Exclusivity
In this episode of "Unconditioning Love," Lydia sits down with Robert, who shares his journey of growing up as a third-generation member of the 2x2 high control religion, a highly sheltered upbringing within a strict religious environment. As a...
Tara's Story - Freedom From Fear
In this episode of "Unconditioning Love," we are joined by Tara, who bravely shares her story of growing up in a high control religion. Tara's parents began converting to this faith when she was six, which brought drastic changes to her lif...
Blind Forgiveness
Welcome to today's episode of "Unconditioning Love," where we dive deep into the transformative power of forgiveness. Today, we’re tackling a topic that’s both personal and profound: how forgiveness has been misused and how we can reclaim it fo...
Kelly's Story Part 1
Kelly calls in from Colorado to share the first part of her story, opening with the moment her parents professed into the high-control religion known as the truth. She was just one year old at the time. Her mother was new to the faith, while he...
Andrea's Story Part 2 - Exploring Authenticity & Judgement
Andrea returns for a second conversation, this time recorded in person, after Lydia met up with her during a trip back to the US. Sitting together in Andrea's home, the two pick up a thread from their first conversation and turn it into a close...
Andrea's Story - Saving Your Own Life: Inner Child Healing
Andrea grew up in what she calls a "broken home," bounced through twelve different schools and five stepfathers, largely raising herself on the streets of her neighborhood while her mother, in survival mode herself, was often absent. Without an...
Healing Your Voice - A Guided Meditation
This week I'm doing something a little different: instead of a conversation, I'm leading you through a short guided meditation for healing your inner child around your voice. It's meant for a quiet, comfortable moment, eyes closed if you can, d...
La Historia de Elda - Dios Es Una Fuente De Amor (En Español)
Esta semana Lydia conversa en español con Elda, desde Panamá, quien fue invitada a las reuniones de "la verdad" siendo adulta y terminó entregando toda su vida a la iglesia. Elda comparte cómo, desde niña, sintió una necesidad genuina de perten...
Relyssa's Story Part 2
When the abuse allegations around "Dean" broke last spring, Relyssa did what she always does with a crisis: she researched it obsessively, joining Facebook groups and reading every exit story and old exit letter she could find on sites like x2x...
Relyssa's Story Part 1
Relyssa, one of twelve siblings, grew up structuring her whole calendar around convention season, but she and Lydia spend a lot of this first half talking about the thing that kept her steady inside that structure: sports. She did taekwondo, wr...
Unpacking The Word Fellowship
This week Lydia goes solo on a single word that carried a lot more weight growing up than it should have: fellowship. In the meetings it meant Sunday and Wednesday testimonies that were technically vulnerable but never actually felt safe, more ...
Sara's Story - The Power Of A Mother's Love
Sara grew up calling it simply "the truth," in a New Jersey home with no written doctrine beyond the King James Bible, and even as a small child she couldn't reconcile a loving God with the constant message that she was unworthy. She describes ...